A Chance Encounter

(I wrote this reflection yesterday but I did not upload/publish it because I thought it was not long enough and it’s all questions. However when I read the gospel for today it was the same story that I based my reflection so here it is…)

I went to “One” Conference, an Archdiocesan event here in Vancouver last week. There were three amazing speakers who shared to us and challenged us with a lot of thought-provoking statements about happiness, renewal/transformation, and desire. After how many days have passed, there’s this one point that’s been recurring since then. The question was: How/What does it feel to be in my presence? Every night I ask myself what do other people feel when they are with me? Do they feel excited? Do they feel blessed? Do they want to stay with me? Am I a good companion? Am I a trusted friend? Am I real to them? Do I stress them out? Am I insistent? Are they weirded out with me? Too pushy? Do they feel loved? Am I like my mother? Or my sisters maybe? Do they see Jesus in me?

Just like the gospel last Thursday and today. Jesus asked his disciples, “Who do people say that I am?” I want to ask the same question to people who are strangers to me, to those who are my acquaintance, those who I’ve been serving/working with, to those who I always talk to, and to my family. Who do they say I am? Do they see Jesus in the way I think and make decisions? Do they experience Jesus in my actions? Do they feel Jesus in my words? Do they encounter Jesus in my mere presence?

I may not find the answers right away or the answers may vary everyday no not everyday but every minute or second but I pray that they experience Jesus in me.

“Lord you have surrounded us with people everyday and everyday also we meet or come across strangers and familiar people. I pray that in those times that they we encounter each other, may I naturally bring you out but in most times be brave enough to deliberately present you to people. Use me Lord.”

Encounter With a Person

Personal conversion happens when we encounter the person of Jesus Christ. St. Paul, on the road to Damacus, the woman at the well, Mary Magdaline, St. Thomas, and many others. Pope Benedict XVI said, “Being Christian is not the result of an ethical choice or a lofty idea, but the encounter with an event, a person, which gives life a new horizon and a decisive direction.” When we truly encounter Jesus Christ, we are given a new horizon in life and a decisive direction. If this doesn’t happen, then we haven’t truly encountered and opened our hearts to Him.

We must be careful not to get too caught up with the ethics and lofty ideas of Christianity. This was the downfall of some the Pharisees. Jesus appeals to the core of our being: our hearts. Sometimes I do fall and become like a Pharisee when I’m hard on myself for not understanding certain concepts as well as others, or even when I judge others for not knowing the law. How foolish and arrogant of me to be that way. It is a hardened heart like mine during these times that Jesus opposes.

I must remain focused on the Word before the words, the Person before the books, Jesus Christ. In my weakness, I hope to encounter Him often for a daily conversion because my hardened heart definitely needs that. Oh how I wish I could just go through one life-changing encounter and be set for life. I find that I slip often and I truly need to encounter Him more than once. I think Jesus knew this and is why He created the Church and instituted His Sacraments and why we have sacramentals. He did this so that we can have a daily encounter with Him, truly and fully, with all of His body, blood, soul, and divinity. This daily encounter is what empowers us to live the Christian life with zeal.

My Jesus, I am so unworthy of You. This is why I praise and thank You with all of my heart for giving me a Mother who makes me worthy because of her prayers. In her, may I be able to encounter You and receive all the graces you intend to give me. By the Holy Spirit, may You be in me so much that when others encounter me, they encounter You. Use me Lord as Your instrument to turn peoples hearts back to You, but may that conversion always start in my own heart. Amen,