Coming from an area like Metro Region, it’s almost a given that you will be asked to handle many different roles and responsibilities. I have always been more of a Martha than a Mary; I oversee checklists before acknowledging relationships.
This attitude got me going downhill in no time. Before I knew it, everything I had to do felt more like a burden, not a blessing. Every time I was asked to take on yet another role, my heart would grow more in affliction rather than gratitude. How much longer could I keep doing all of this? I was overwhelmed. I was overworked. I was so, so, so tired.
I was hitting a wall over and over and over again. How did I get to this point?
There is both beauty and art in being able to stay grounded in the midst of a storm. If I desired full time work as passionately as I did- as I still do- then I had to find a practical way to keep going. The problem lay not in the strength and size of my fire, but my ability to sustain it.
Everything I do is suppose to lead me closer to Heaven. If not, then I need to seriously reconsider my intentions, change perspectives, and reevaluate what is in my heart. Do I value the work of God more than God himself? Do I prioritize the work before my relationship with Him?
Realization:
The missionary matters to God before the mission.
The mission will always be there. The work in Metro region will keep going day and night; it will not stop until Christ himself comes back. My cup will always be filled with more, not because God is punishing me but because He wants to keep blessing me. My priority should always be to grow deeper in holiness with Christ, not the checkmarks beside my task list.
This work is grounded in the truth that whatever God places in our life is meant to make us more alive, allowing us to be more of who we are called to be. Whatever God does, is with purpose and that purpose is to reveal to us His unshakeable, unbreakable love for us.
For now and for always.
Even when it hurts / Even when it’s hard / Even when it all just falls apart / I will run to You / ‘Cause I know that You are / Lover of my soul / Healer of my scars / YOU STEADY MY HEART / I’m not gonna worry / I know that You’ve got me / Right inside the palm of your hand / Each and every moment / What’s good and what gets broken / Happens just the way You plan / You are here / You’re real / I know I can trust You.
