Let’s see

Come and see what God has done,
    his awesome deeds for mankind! – Psalm 66:5

This verse says a lot. Such as for us to be a witness to something big, and maybe for us to preview what heaven will be like.  God who is all powerful and almighty with all things done through Him has a special love for us that He will never get tired of us and will continually show us things that He wants us to see.  There is so much joy in this alone.  His love for us says it all.

His response

Lent is a perfect season to always try to renew yourself as well as to purify ourselves to be ready for the Lord.  Our hearts are all in different states whether you are in spiritual high or experiencing a low in your life.  One thing that we fall into is sin, distractions in prayer, and the feeling of desolation.  But really who has never experienced these?  There are three things that I’ve learned during this lenten journey… Praise God.

  • The first is, sin causes us to thirst, and the Lord’s response is, “I am the living water.”
  • The second, sin causes darkness, and the Lord’s response is, “I am the light of the world.”
  • The third is, sin causes death, and the Lord’s response is, “I am the resurrection.”

Look at how much the Lord wants us to come closer to him each time we sin, the Lord’s love for us is everlasting and it began with him dying on the cross for us.

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that’s very refreshing

Always, whether its during a 1 on 1, in an assembly, or simply at a household I am reminded by these few words, “Eucharist, Reconciliation, and prayer, always practice these, and be consistent.”  I usually have my weekly routine, Tuesdates with the Lord where I’ll be going to mass & confession and already there was a period of time where I struggled even attending. I wonder why its kind of bugging me….

This is what I’ve read from the Lord is “When I come to You in this Holy Sacrament [Eucharist], I offer you interior light and strength.  These gifts are known only to my faithful ones. They are not enjoyed by unbelievers, nor by those who love sin.  In this Sacrament, the soul receives his grace to regain lost virtues and the beauty which was lost by sin”

Frequent mass & confession is for sure what He’s implying and maybe more than just a regular routine.  There is so much from the Lord he wants to give to us that we are so unworthy to receive.

You know Lord I’m already struggling balancing my time with all my responsibilities, if you can somehow help to reorganize my time so I can attend mass that would be great. -Amen

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The air is too dry

On my recent Tuesdate at church I found myself asking the Lord, “Lord, why is it so hard to pray right now, how did I lose my routine and why did I go away from you.”   I feel once again I’ve fallen into “dryness.”  Everything feels weird, stale, and really I don’t like that feeling.  I think it would be pretty awesome if I was a bit more… salty.  eh eh

During my one on one I found myself saying “you know, its funny how when we fall out of prayer it just so happens that the things around us don’t seem right.”  There is a battle of prayer,  multiple factors could be affecting this feeling such as lack of faith and lack of trust.  It comes down to us.

Here’s what I learned about this battle.

CCC 2731 Another difficulty, especially for those who sincerely want to pray, is dryness. Dryness belongs to contemplative prayer when the heart is separated from God, with no taste for thoughts, memories, and feelings, even spiritual ones. This is the moment of sheer faith clinging faithfully to Jesus in his agony and in his tomb. “Unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if dies, it bears much fruit.” If dryness is due to the lack of roots, because the word has fallen on rocky soil, the battle requires conversion.

Cling faithfully to Jesus and conversion is necessary, those are the words that shine out the most.

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Stay with me

There is one feeling about waiting which can be very tiresome is the feeling of an unknown.  I’m sure you’re wondering how could it be tiring, you’re just waiting.  Well, at times waiting feels difficult because you start to rely on worldly things, like time, goals,  and you begin to rely on yourself.  A heart that was at ease becomes restless and quickly wants answers.  I think this is why waiting is tiresome because you put things in front of you which you don’t know an outcome.

Its times like these where the Lord wants us to become more faithful, more hopeful, and of course patient in affliction [Romans 12:9-13].  When we continue with our relationship with the Lord waiting becomes easier because our trust in Him increases.  An unknown becomes clear because the Lord reveals to us exactly what we need to see.  With the Lord there is always an outcome.

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Watch out spoiler alert

Last week I was privileged to watch the film Mary of Nazareth (I highly recommend to watch if there is a screening) and what stood out to me the most during the film was her humility in each of her encounters.

In my mind it was as if the entire joyful mysteries was turned into a movie.  Anyways I’ll skip to what I want to say.  The scene was of Mary and extended family going to see Jesus at Simeon’s house.  Someone said to Jesus his mother was here and he responded “…For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother.” The man said to Mary out of embarrassment “see, he doesn’t even acknowledge you as his mother, let’s go” but Mary insisted to stay with her reply,

“I am not here to be with my son, I am here to be with my Lord.”

There she was recognizing that Jesus was more than someone she carried in her womb but as the Lord Almighty himself!  Now how does this apply to me? I believe it is reminding me to recognize that I am here to be with the Lord.  I am not here because I want to be or have to be, I am choosing to be where I am with the Lord.  And when we choose Him, we choose the things He has taught us.  There is no other, only what the Lord has given to us. So here I am Lord.

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Simple things

Three realizations I’ve had during the week, you can ask me why if you want.

  1. In order to be closer to the Lord, there requires a lot of self denial so much that it will hurt.  A self denial that is willing  to say to the Lord “Lord share to me your sufferings so that I can be closer to you”
  2. Our life & part of the mission should include the conversion of souls as well as praying for the faithful departed.  Lastly,
  3. We should exhibit fear of the Lord in piety… well because He is worthy to be praised.

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