In His Eyes

It’s almost been a week since I walked across the stage and received my diploma. A new graduate of fashion school. Fashion school.. hm, in the eyes of people I surround myself with, fashion school sounds “fun and very girly”. In the eyes of my family, fashion school sounds “unappealing, a waste of time and a waste of money”. In this world we live in there is such a high standard of what you are suppose to do in this life to survive. Not only survive, but be successful. In my eyes, fashion school has impacted the way I view society and the way I view myself. Two years ago when I sent in my application for fashion school I knew this was my “calling”. I love to sketch, I love to sew, and I love clothes! This career suited me perfectly. Now that two years have passed and reality has sunk in. Who am I really? Am I a fashion design student who still believes this is my calling? Although designing is “fun and very girly” it has become “unappealing”. My views of this career has allowed me to see the girl I really am. The daughter I am. In my eyes, I don’t see a fashion design student. In my eyes, I see a child, a daughter of God still trying to discover herself, searching for something greater. I am a daughter of Christ who is called for greater things than just to be a designer. The Lord calls me to do greater things not only of this world, but for His glory. He has planted a desire in me to serve. Whether it is to serve within this community of CFC-Youth I know that I am called for greater things. I don’t just want to survive, I want to live. Live in the life Christ has set for me. And so I hold near to my heart this desire of mission He has placed upon me, asking for patience and perseverance so that I may truly do His will. Not my will, but Your will be done. Use me as your instrument and allow me to selflessly let go of all the materialism I hold near to my heart and replace it with your infinite and merciful love. It is only through Your eyes I may seek and find rest. 

Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us.

Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy of us.