Decisions on what we want for good
Involves not just us but with God,
Surrendering to His will,
Choosing a greater good
Enhancing our prayer life
Rendering ourselves
Not holding on the time,
Making Jesus the center of it
Enjoying His guidance and lead
Not what I want but as You want
Trusting in the Lord forever.
In every aspect of our lives we constantly decide on everything that we do. Whatever level of decision making we do whether it’s in the level of instinct, conscience or discernment will always influence our life and mission. As a Mission Volunteer Applicant, I have become more aware of the level of thinking that I am doing. Before I was more of an instinct and conscience decider I always rely on my gut feeling or sometimes I think if that will be a good or bad result to me or to others. I always use my mind to decide and put besides the heart sometimes I just decide without even praying for it.
Since I become an SFC I have been hearing a lot about discernment but I really don’t understand it fully until I have to discern for my application for mission volunteer applicant. It took me a year to finally decide on it. I know I have a calling but I did not know how to handle it. I have to constantly ask God what he want me to do thru my prayer time and He consistently gave me an answer that sometimes confuses me. I talked to a lot of people but I did not tell them what I am discerning for. I asked for questions that also leads to more questions. I look for answers in the forms of signs and I don’t get the answer I want. What leads me to finally saying YES to the calling of an MVA is thru surrendering.
I decided to let go of all the things that is keeping me from pursuing what I like. I let go and let God. I tell God what I really want and tell him that I wanted to go do the mission and I need His guidance to for this decision. During my discernment time God let me see all the options that I can have. He showed me that whatever I choose is always for the better me. He showed me the good and the better of both sides if I chose to be an MVA or not. He did not let me decide base on my instinct because this is not a matter of pain and pleasure. He did not let me decide base on my conscience because it is not a matter of right of wrong. Instead He let me discern for it because it is between the good and the greater good. And when we discern we have to always keep in our mind and heart to always choose the greater good.
When I finally decided to say yes to be an MVA, a greater peace of mind comes over me knowing that I have choose a greater good. All the confusions that was in my mind vanish and greater good of knowing that the Holy Spirit now is leading the way on my journey. Sometimes it is hard for us to accept what God wants for us but I know I am happy because I choose the greater good, which is God’s will over me. God has let me choose because he wants me to be happy not just by the decision that I make but the heart that is renewed and full of peace and contentment. It is still a long way for us we are always in the process of discerning but God will always be there for us
Discernment is surrendering, it is knowing God’s will is for us and desiring what God wants for us.
“Yet not what I want, but what you want” Matthew 26:39