The past few weeks has been quite something for myself. Like, ALOT of things were going on at the same time and I found myself overwhelmed by all of it. I had no idea how to handle it, and I felt very congested in my life; like something needed to be released in order for me to finally breathe (so I guess that was a stuffed nose analogy).
How often do we find ourselves in these positions? How often do we feel like we’re holding too many things in our hands and we have to think about what to drop?
Well, being the bozo that I am sometimes, I decided to do just that. I decided to let go. I decluttered things in my life, and at the time it seemed like the right thing to do. But the moment I did that, I wasn’t happy with what I had left in my hands.
I let the difficulty of life get the better of me, and I’d say I made some pretty quick and thoughtless decisions. Yes, I was trying to do so many things, but I decluttered the wrong things. I decluttered the things in my life that actually helped me, made me productive and gave me purpose. I decided to hold onto complacency, apathy, laziness, and other things I didn’t need with me. I thought that if I couldn’t handle the good things in my life, then I didn’t deserve the good things.
But one visit to Adoration changed all that. After praying the Rosary (s/o to all the #QueensMen) my eyes were finally opened, which is kind of funny because when they opened, I was crying so much haha.
For whatever reason, my first instinct amidst my stress was to let go of God first (like, how dare I do that?!). From there, of course my priorities were out of whack. I saw my struggles as burdensome and took the easy way out. But my struggles were blessings in disguises because they were opportunities to draw even closer to Him. Amidst all the things I had to do, the one thing, and I’d even say the only thing I needed to keep doing was trust in Him, and the rest would be taken care of. So now, in my times of doubt, stress and I feel like giving up on things, I just pray quickly :
Jesus I trust in you
Jesus I trust in you
Jesus I trust in you
P. S. If anyone wants to do their Consecration to Mary, the start date for the 33 days is October 19 for the Presentation of the Blessed Virgin Mary 😀
