This past week I’ve attended my first SHouT and I’m glad it was the MV SHouT 2014! This experience has truly opened up new windows for me. I’ve become close to these brothers and sisters whom I have been blessed to share this exciting new journey as a missionary in the community with. But it’s also made me know more about myself and what The Lord has planned for me and my call. He has rekindled the small fire in my heart and ignited it over the roof and crossed boundaries I have always been afraid to reach out too.
I’ve always been fearful, I was afraid of change, afraid of the future and afraid of getting hurt. Truly enough, shortly after deciding to finally apply to become a Mission Volunteer, my anxiety built up and new questions rose… “What if I get too busy trying to balance MV with what I have now?” or minuscule things like service, family, work troubles… I constantly question exactly why The Lord chooses to put me in these certain situations when He knows I’ll be uncomfortable in them. Which is exactly why He did them in the first place, and will continue to do it because He loves me so much. He does this so when I fall, I fall into His hands and there He will strengthen me. No matter how much you weigh the problems you have, it is nothing compared to what The Lord can ultimately do for you. God in Your grace now, oh I will do the same, to be as fearless, to stand and to proclaim.”
But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
– 2 Corinthians 12: 9-10
Lord I do not give you enough credit for helping me overcome my struggles and I also do not acknowledge the good in them. These struggles only made me strive to feed onto the spiritual deprivation I’ve been missing, and that is of You.
“For I know the plans I have for you” declared The Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29: 11-13
