After our first meeting with SFC MVs Canada, I had a hard time absorbing all the things we talked about. In my head I understood everything, I guess. I have my notes, they are clear and complete. Sis. Evony emailed us the minutes of the meeting, so I think I have all the information I need from that meeting, at least to go through all our assignments and what to expect from us before our next meeting. Jerry and Khristine even came to my apartment to discuss about what we need to do, but seriously things weren’t sinking in to me, until the following weekend when I went back to my notes and emails and Facebook notifications from Tito George and the MV Heads. That’s when I finally say (and accepted to myself), this is it… for real.
Whether things were not sinking in to me, or I was just denying it, I don’t know. But one thing is for sure: Deep within, I am excited. A little bit scared, yes… Those fears that occasionally flash in my mind – the fear of not being able to do what I said yes to, the fear of not being able to spend time with my family, my close friends and our households, the fear of being addicted to service (yes I even fear that), the fear of not focusing on my job… these random thoughts distract me.
But you know what, I thank God for these fears. Because when fears come in, that is when I start to run to Him and to trust Him. When I feel scared, that is when I appreciate an inspirational message from a distant friend, that’s when God let me see Jessica’s photo (YFC MV) with Tito Eric saying “we fight a good fight”, that’s when I see Gelo’s reflections and Vanessa’s posts about the PEI mission, that is when I come across with Kari Jobe’s “Forever”. When I fear, that’s when I pray harder and suddenly get affirmed that God is with me and there’s really nothing to worry about.
There is, and there will always be one solution to all our worries and fears: Prayers. In the first place, prayer is what took all of us in this mission. We personally prayed for this! Lots of people prayed for our discernments. So whenever we’re making a decision and we knew that prayers played a big role in it, friends, we are on the right track. Stay faithful. Keep praying. #jet