A few weeks ago, I came across an old journal entry that listed some of my personal desires, and as I was skimming through it, I found a very interesting statement:
Desire: being one in the heart of Jesus.
To be perfectly honest, I had absolutely no recollection of writing this, nor did I even understand what I meant by this statement. I thought to myself, “What gives me the right to even write this if I don’t understand it?”
I asked the Lord to help me understand, and I didn’t notice it at first, but the Lord was slowly answering my prayer and unraveling himself to me.
It’s strange and a bit difficult to explain, but I found that, lately, I’ve been going through a lot of little trials throughout each day. Through these trials, I found myself turning to the Lord in a very special way: when dealing with difficult people, I’ve asked him to lend me his heart; after a bad day at work, I always ask him for consolation and rest in His heart; in the morning, I offer all the impending experiences of my day to His most Sacred Heart, and etc. No matter what, I always found myself turning to His Heart. And all these trials, that would have otherwise been excruciating, were filled with so much sweetness and love. I can slowly feel him showing me what it’s like to be one with his heart as he helps me to carry my crosses daily out of love for Him, with Him, and in Him.
I don’t think I could ever completely comprehend the fullness of his love, but I am certain of one thing: His heart will continue to become my strength, and His heart will continue to be my refuge. And through His heart my entire existence, even with all its imperfections, becomes sweeter and imbued with love.
There’s no heart I’d rather celebrate each day than yours.
Thank you for sharing this. I just want to affirm your love for His most Sacred Heart. It resonates in your life as a missionary and always with the way you treat your loved ones (including me! Hah! #feelingclose)
But really, you have greatly influenced my prayer life and the perspective I have with trials and tribulations. Because of that, you still indirectly influence the West Sector 🙂
God is good in you!
“I didn’t know Jesus until I learned to embrace my cross.” -Sister Carmelina
Praise God for you, Nica!
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