Being away on mission (especially in a different country) has really been a true test of heart. Honestly speaking, I’ve had times where it has felt hard because it has sometimes felt like I only have a mere handful of home that I can turn to whenever, wherever, however (the 3 other missionaries, and my close friends and my family who are awake when I am). And the truth is, there are parts of my life that I know I have to live out differently because my focus (now that I’m actually placed at an Area – no matter how short or long it is going to be) needs to change… God has now entrusted new things to me. And honestly speaking, I have felt myself asking and pondering…
Lord, should I put these that are dear to me on hold?
It has been quite a journey. It’s been a while that I have asked this question, and after the BLESSED SFC Holy Land Conference that had just passed, I am affirmed.
I am not called to put what is dear to me on hold, but IN hold
… in His hold.
If our Father Who is Perfect can entrust new things – things that are dear to Him – to me, then I, being imperfect, must also carry complete trust to entrust all that is dear to me in His hands… in His hold… knowing He is making them more perfect. Our life, when placed in the hands of Christ, are being transformed more in His image and likeness. And it is through a journey; not an event. It is a journey of change in which He is perfectly making all things a gift. Therefore, I need not to worry or be weary, or even ask so many questions. I must just simply trust with patience and with faith.
PSALM 37
“3 Trust in the Lord, and do good;
so you will dwell in the land, and enjoy security.
4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
6 He will bring forth your vindication as the light,
and your right as the noonday.
7 Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him;
11 But the meek shall possess the land,
and delight themselves in abundant prosperity.
16 Better is a little that the righteous has
than the abundance of many wicked.
17 […] the Lord upholds the righteous.
23 The steps of a man are from the Lord,
and he establishes him in whose way he delights;
24 though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong,
for the Lord is the stay of his hand.
26 He is ever giving liberally and lending,
and his children become a blessing.
30 The mouth of the righteous utters wisdom,
and his tongue speaks justice.
31 The law of his God is in his heart;
his steps do not slip.
33 The Lord will not abandon him to his power,
or let him be condemned when he is brought to trial.
34 Wait for the Lord, and keep to his way,
and he will exalt you to possess the land;
37 Mark the blameless man, and behold the upright,
for there is posterity for the man of peace.
39 The salvation of the righteous is from the Lord;
he is their refuge in the time of trouble.
40 The Lord helps them and delivers them;
he delivers them from the wicked, and saves them,
because they take refuge in him.”
Lord, I trust in you, my Refuge and my Strength. In all my days, You have been the Greatest Providence, and I pray for the faith to keep my heart, my mind and my spirit always set on Your Will for me in all my desires… in all that I love. And I pray that in the same way, You bless all those whom I love and those I have yet to encounter.
Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us,
Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us,
Amen.
TOTUS TUUS.