Sometimes I am dumb. I forget that the Lord is not like people. Sometimes I serve simply for others – because others are happy with results. But our God doesn’t work that way. He is happy with you. When you serve whole heartedly and with love, regardless of the outcome, He is happy with you.
A lot of the time I work only on the outward me. I focus on the service that others see. But God asks for more that what people see, because He sees the real you – the true you – all of you. A lot of the time I am frustrated and angry with all the chaos that builds up inside myself because I am trying so hard to please everyone else. It pushes out my prayer time and love for others.
But work is just work, and it is nothing if there is no one to do it for. God calls us to love Him and to love His people. That is the work. And I think in my discernment it is the same. I discern for what other people want of me. What does everyone else need? But, the question really is, what does God need from me?
In the silence of my heart Lord, speak.
You liberate me from my own noise and my own chaos
From the chains of a lesser law, You set me free