I had the opportunity to make my way to Vancouver Island for Victoria’s camp, by myself in a section where I can view the vast beauty of God through the window. The waves of the sea, the birds flying, the hills and folds of mountains, the blue sky, the clouds, the sunshine and the small islands are all things I was blessed to behold. Then I just began thinking of how great, mysterious and creative our Creator is. Then I began thinking of how great he has been in my life. At the same time, I was listening to a music playlist I haven’t listened to in over a year which include were, “Came to the rescue”, “Rhythms of Grace”, “None but Jesus”, “I Will Exalt you”, and “The Stand”.
I began to think of God’s great love for me because I was thinking “even this huge ocean doesn’t compare to His love.” Then I began to think of how He loves me and how much He’s blessed me. And I couldn’t believe it. It’s hard to believe that the Lord loves me so much even though I am so unworthy, through all the hurts I’ve caused Him and to his people. His mercy is unfathomable. I can’t believe He knows all the things I’ve done wrong yet chooses to let me take my next breath. On top of that, I can’t believe He’s blessed me and continues to bless me with so many people that love me and care for me and a community that accepts. All of these are gifts I have failed to recognize and appreciate in the past and probably will continue to in the future. But He still loves me.
He really wanted to reflect and meditate because for some odd reason “Rhythms of Grace”, repeated twice during the time I was in deep reflection after the playlist repeated several times. How providential haha! As it is sung in the song, no eye has seen no ear has heard the depths of His love, no mind can fathom the love He deserves and how great He is. My eyes were filled with tears of joy. It was so hard to hold back in a ferry hahaha!
I know He allowed for this to happen just so I can be filled with love. I thank the Lord that He gave me that opportunity to appreciate and be grateful for everything, because without that opportunity I don’t think I would have been properly ready to serve. How can I love others if I don’t let myself be loved? How can I let the Lord’s grace overflow onto others if it is not overflowing within my heart? How can I give something that I don’t have? My heart was filled with love and joy looking forward to sharing that love and joy to those at the Victoria camp. In those moments I have never felt so loved in my life. I was made ready to love at that time because I was full of Love Himself. Praise God!
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