I realized it was never if I had the capacity to serve on mission. Instead, it was if I was willing to allow the Lord to use me for His glory and hold the posture of joyful faithfulness in that plan.
This year has been a blur of events and hardships but blessings above all. Each time I find myself mastering a task, in turn God has challenged me in ways I never expected and at a speed I didn’t foresee. As much as I like to be prepared and ready for the unknown, I feel the Lord continually pushing me into situations where I can only rely on Him for strength and guidance.
I have often worried that I may not be the ideal mission volunteer that most have come to expect in the community. Fears and uncertainty have crept up, questioning my capability to accomplish the tasks that I have been given in service.
This past weekend, prior to leaving for mission I understood that Lord had been purifying my intentions as a mission volunteer. If I would still go, although I was exhausted, getting sick and essentially didn’t know what to expect. It was a simple decision in the end: Rely on the Lord for strength or allow your doubts to consume you. Coming back from mission, I realized it was never if I had the capacity to serve on mission. Instead, it was if I was willing to allow the Lord to use me for His glory and hold the posture of joyful faithfulness in that plan.
The Lord is always asking for our yes, and through that we are capable of much.