Its been a while…I’ve been meaning to post, but complications with this and that, and blah and blah. I think God wanted me to write at this time anyways.
Just reflecting on the new year to come and how every year I always think to myself of how much for the better I’m going to be, whether physically, mentally, spiritually; I’ve come to the conclusion that, i feel as if I’m losing more of me every year.
Okay…I don’t get it. What do you mean?
I feel like I don’t have the confidence I used to. I’m totally afraid of rejection. I feel really emotionally unstable at times. *Side note, I never used to be like this..in fact quite opposite.*
BUT, there is something to get out of it.
One thing that keeps ringing in my head, that I know for sure God is telling me is,
“Don’t let the no’s, affect your yes’s.”
Rest assure God set things up the way they are, or how they play out. What use would the full armor of God be if it were never battle tested?
As for being afraid of rejection or being unstable at times, all in all, how you take it is a mere reflection on how much do you really trust in the Lord’s plans? Maybe I need to purify everything a bit more. The Lord will reveal what He wants, in His time, and not when I desire it.
This new year, isn’t for a new me. This year, is merely a better version of the person God created, for God.
Lord, there are things and people that I have been praying for day in, and day out but Lord, You hold it all in Your hands. As the new year goes by, I already know I will be tested. I will have bad days, good days, but in everything that I do, may I continue to ask to be a better version of myself, simply just for You. I need You, Lord.
Deo Gloria