Love in Beauty

The MV Exam, for me, is a reminder of how beautiful the community really is. These individuals took the exam because they are drawn to the community so much that some are even discerning to be full-time pastoral workers—people who end up giving their lives to the Lord through the community. They are captivated, and like anything truly beautiful, it would take one a long time to find out the details that makes it so. Being an MV and FTPW is wonderful because we get to see the details that make up the beauty of the Lord in our community like we’ve never seen or experienced before.

May our discernment be drawn by love in beauty. Amen.

Life After Dying in the Desert

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When I think of a desert, I think of a barren place full of sand with extremely hot temperatures. It’s a dry place that is almost humanely inhabitable because of the lack of basic necessities like water and food. I think of hunger and thirst, and I see dry bones of animal carcasses. How fitting is it that Jesus and many other missionaries had to experience 40 days in a desert before commencing with their ministry. Dying in the desert is necessary so that we can quite profoundly and literally die to ourselves so that we can truly focus on the Lord and others. This is what ministry is about.

However, Jesus was perfect so He had no imperfections to die to. Just like Baptism, He had to do it  for the sake of our sanctification. Now we can rest assured that when we go through our desert, it has been sanctified by Christ and there is redeeming value in it for us. Because of Jesus, the suffering we experience in the desert is now redemptive.

The beauty of lent that we just experienced was truly in our prayer, fasting, and alms-giving because each required us to sacrifice something in our lives. Prayer is a sacrifice of time, fasting, a sacrifice of carnal pleasure, and alms-giving, a sacrifice of our treasure. We truly experienced a desert during lent because we were called to sacrifice everything and be left in a barren place lacking many things we thought we needed. Praise God for this because it led us to realize that God is all we need, that He is the only one that can quench our thirst and satisfy our hunger.

Easter is experiencing resurrection with Jesus after dying. Have you ever been so famished and then finally ate or drank? When it comes to Easter, we are not happy because we no longer have to sacrifice like we did during lent, but because we now appreciate our relationship with God more, having died to ourselves in one way or another. We now appreciate even more how the Lord gives us food to eat and water to drink. We are able to see with more clarity, the lush oasis of God’s love in our lives. The Lord used the sacrifices of lent as an opportunity to mold our hearts from stone to flesh. A heart of flesh is a living heart, one that is truly alive and life-giving, like a fountain of water springing forth from dry lands. Dying to ourselves has increased our capacity to love and has helped us to be more sensitive to the everlasting life of Jesus within us.

Now that Lent is over and as we enter Eastertide, let not our prayers, fasting, and alms-giving stop because the Lord is not done with us yet. He continues to mold us to be more like Him but we must allow Him. We allow Him by continually giving ourselves to Him in the morning and the night, in the garden and in the desert. Let us continue on this journey together, denying ourselves, taking up our cross, and following Him every day. As we journey, we can rest assured that He is with us.

After resurrecting and when Jesus first appeared to the apostles He said to them “peace be with you.” Amen and amen, Peace is with us when Jesus is with us. The apostles lived with this faith, knowing that Jesus was always with them in their ministry. They lived this faith even unto death, knowing that death would only bring them closer to Him. We may not be called to physically die for our faith, but we are called to die to ourselves. Let’s not be afraid to do this because even in the face of death, Jesus is with us and that’s where we can find rest in the peace that only He can give.

Christ has resurrected and promised that He’ll always be with us.

So peace be with you! Even in the desert, peace be with you.

Paschal Mystery

Now that it’s Holy Week I can’t help but meditate on the Paschal Mystery of Jesus Christ—His Passion, Death, and Resurrection. The more I think about these events of Jesus’ life, the more I’m compelled to see how it relates to mine.

How is the Lord calling me to experience the suffering of His Passion, the obedience of His Death, and the glory, victory, and hope of His Resurrection?

I will continue to ponder these things in my heart and allow His graces to work in me and to change my heart.

Mama Mary, allow me to journey with you in your heart, as the life of your Son unfolds before me. Amen.

Here I Am

This past weekend in Pacific, we conducted the MCG Retreat. It was very fruitful! I couldn’t help but be affirmed that the Lord is truly with us on this journey.  The retreat was entitled “Here I Am” taken from the book of Samuel, when the Lord called him by name and he answered “Here I am!” When the Lord calls, we come as we are.

As I look back on my journey I realize how much the Lord really loves me because even if I’ve lived a sinful life, He still affirmed me of His love and kept calling me to follow Him. He has truly called me to come and follow Him as I am, with all my sins, weaknesses, failures, limitations, and unworthiness. He calls me by name knowing how much I’ve hurt Him. He is truly a Father that loves and is full of mercy and compassion.

Heavenly Father, here I am, a criminal according to your justice but a son according to your mercy and justification in Jesus Christ. Thank you for being so patient with me. Your tenderness calls out to me and causes me to keep inching forward. Your grace sustains me when I falter and when I’m down. Thank You God for everything. Thank You for calling me as I am, without the fig leaves. I cannot hide from Your love. May Your fire illuminate the darkness and incinerate all that hinders me from loving You. Our Lady of perpetual help, pray for me and all sinners. We fly unto you!

 

Prayer is Boring

I once heard that prayer is boring because you didn’t make it about Jesus and you didn’t make it about others. After I heard that, I immediately realized how selfish I’ve been with my prayers and that’s one of the reasons why it was getting ‘boring’. Lent can also be understood in the same light because in essence, all that we do during lent should be a prayer, because prayer, fasting, and almsgiving are meant to lift our heart and mind to God. However, if we make lent about ourselves then it will be boring, disengaging, and will seem like a chore. In order for the season of Lent (and every season with the Lord) to be fruitful and  not boring, it has to be about Jesus and it has to be about others.

Here are a few things I need to remind myself of during lent:

1. Make Jesus the centre of your prayer. 

Begin with Jesus in mind and heart and not other things. Have a dialogue with Him and not a monologue with yourself. Speak to Him, listen to Him, and let Him have the first and last say. Spend time with Him as much as possible, especially literally in front of Him in the Blessed Sacrament. Encounter Him in the scriptures, family, friends, in every task, and most especially in Mass.

2. Remember the poor when fasting

Don’t make fasting about yourself. Don’t let it point your affections whether they be joy or suffering to yourself but let it be a reminder to suffer with the millions of poor people around the world. Let fasting be an opportunity to grow in your ability to be compassionate, in other words, to suffer with those who are suffering. Don’t eat that candy simply because you said you gave it up, but because you truly want to experience even the slightest mortification that is nothing compared to the suffering of those in great destitution.

3. Give alms to have a change of heart

Be generous with your time, talent, and treasure. Give concretely. Give until it hurts, then let that hurt purify and change your heart to become more like Jesus’ heart. Give because others truly need what you have to offer even if it’s as little as 25 cents. God doesn’t see what or how much you’re giving. He sees the heart. He sees if we are giving our heart. That’s why it has to hurt.

It’s really amazing how time flies in prayer when I’ve truly made it about Jesus and others. I would actually find that there’s not enough time to pray!

We have nothing to worry about for ourselves if we are putting Jesus and His kingdom first. His kingdom belongs to the poor and the meek, so the more we associate ourselves with them and prefer them, the closer we will be to the kingdom of Heaven.

The Four Signs of a Dynamic Catholic 4/4 – Evangelization

“Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, to the close of the age.” –Mt 28:19-20 (RSVCE)

We are called to always be in the state of evangelization to those who don’t know Christ and to those who know Christ but have lost His scent. Evangelization is spreading the Good News through one’s testimony of being affected and transformed by the Gospel—the life of Jesus. We don’t need to be theologians and articulate with our words, nor flowery with our exhortations. We only need to be a witness to the transforming power of God’s love through Jesus. The world has enough teachers. We need more witnesses. It’s through the witnessing of one’s life that others catch the fragrance of Christ and they become drawn to Him through you.

However, and of course we can never discount the fact that we will eventually be called to evangelize with our words so let us be intimate with the Word of God through prayer, Scripture, and the Sacraments. He will enable us to speak. We have nothing to worry so long as we speak from our hearts, convicted in the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus.

Holiness goes hand in hand with evangelization because when we are before God in Heaven He will check to see who we brought with us. We are a community of saints. So let us be like the saints in history who have inspired multitudes to be like Jesus through the way they lived their lives. In terms of our future and vocation, we only need to ask this one question: “how is the Lord calling me to make disciples of all nations?” This will lead us to our calling. This is the job and the great commission the Lord has called every one of His disciples!

Praise be God!

Our Lady of Guadalupe, star of the New Evangelization, pray for us!

“How beautiful are the feet of those who preach good news!” –Romans 10:15

 

The Four Signs of a Dynamic Catholic 3/4 – Generosity

Generosity or charity is the life of a Christian-Catholic. This attribute is of monumental importance and at the same time, the very essence of what it means to be Catholic. We only need to think of Jesus Christ who was the Servant of all. Even the Vicar of Christ, the Pope, is called to be the ‘servant of the servants of God.’ To put it simply, to be Catholic is to give our lives  to God and to our neighbour without expecting anything in return for “you received without pay, give without pay.” (Mt 10:8).

The only way to be truly happy is to give our lives away. We know this because of the Cross. Thus, let us continue to ask the Lord “how are you calling me to surrender my life to You?” and respond courageously to the promptings of the Holy Spirit to lay down our lives each day.

“Life grows by being given away, and it weakens in isolation and comfort. Indeed, those who enjoy life most are those who leave security on the shore and become excited by the mission of communicating life to others.” –Pope Francis