Author: Kyle Beley

The LORD is SOOO AWESOME.

He Loves me SOOO much.

I am so overwhelmed with how much peace and joy the Lord gives me each and everyday.

He stays faithful, guiding me in every way.

Lord Jesus, You are someone that we should all share.

Why? Because you are so good, so loving, even when no one is there.

I can rely on you in ANYTHING and for EVERYTHING.

You will never fail. You can never deny who You are, what You do and how You do it.

You are guaranteed goodness, greatness, and perfection.

We can say, “With You, anything is possible.”

We can say, “Our shortcomings are forgiven because I am have an awesome God.”

You make my heart smile, my life joyful, my soul at peace.

Lord Jesus, I adore You, I glorify You, and I love you for loving me.

Thank You Lord and Glory to you alone.

I Am Joyful because You are with me.

You know how back in High School, when we would have a substitute teacher, we would say, “Oh yes! Today is going to be a easy class. It’s gonna be chill, laid back, and we wont have to do much work. Besides, we probably wont see this teacher again.”

Or when we go to confession and we say, “oh man, I hope I do not get the priest who strict and uptight. I want a more chill and laid back priest who cracks a lot of jokes.” Not to say anything is wrong with this but this week I realized through these people that happen to be “strict” or “uptight”, they are actually striving to stand firm in what they believe in.

We are currently living in a society where our faith gets easily COMPROMISED. Our faith gets distracted and tested by the evil one. On our path to Holiness from bad to better or good to better, it is tough to stand firm in our beliefs and focus on Christ.

Yes, it is not an objection that being chill is a “BAD” thing but we need to STAND FIRM. We need to be steadfast in Christ, our prayer time, serving others with love, being role models and exemplify what it means to be a Christian.

It is so easy to be laid back and let the evil one try to take control.

Let’s swim against the current. Lets be on guard and lets tell evil right in the face, that we trust God and stand firm in HIm.

Lord, praise You for giving me the opportunity to be strong in You. Continue helping me stand firm in faith and focus on you in this world. In the name of Jesus and through the intercession of Mother Mary, we give glory to You.

Deo Gloria.

Tuesday, Aug 13th, was the first time I received the blood of Christ.

Something was calling my heart during the 630pm mass at St. John’s Cantius to go ahead and receive the blood of Christ.

My heart was yearning for it, wanting to experience and celebrate the mass in a whole different level in faith. Why only now? I’m not sure. I think I was scared, too prideful and was not conscious of Him.

Right when the wine hit my lips, my whole being was uplifted and my heart was filled with overwhelming joy. Lord, you are so good. Thank you for loving me and wanting me to have more of you.

This morning, I was able to attend mass at 12:10pm at St. Mary’s Cathedral, and again I was yearning for the body and blood of Christ.

After I received the body of Christ, I lined up for the blood.

The Eucharistic minister said, “the blood of Christ,” and since I was the last person she then whispered, “…make sure you finish it.”

IT HIT ME… THE LORD SPOKE TO ME and WAS OFFERING HIS BLOOD FOR ME PERSONALLY TO FINISH IT!

SIGGGGGHHHHH.

AT that moment, after receiving the blood of Christ, my heart was again overwhelmed with so much joy. I again felt God’s love soooo eminently and while walking back to my pew, I had the biggest smile on my face.

The Lord spoke to me personally and touched my heart so gently, but powerfully saying,

“My child, seek me, find me, yearn for me, and I will give you all of me.”

Wow. Lord you are sooo amazing. You are above all and the most important thing in my life and thank you Mother Mary for bringing me to your son to receive.

May God be Praised.

 

Through our weaknesses, we are made strong.

Since joining the Mission Volunteer program last year in May 2012, the Lord has done, given and taken so many things in my life, which are all blessings in the path of Holiness. With all the joy, comes the pain, struggle, stress, trials, and tests from the Lord only to make us stronger.

Last night I was simply reminded of wearing the FULL ARMOR of God from camp training:

• Belt of Truth
• Breastplate of righteousness
• Boots of readiness
• Shield of faith
• Helmet of salvation
• Sword of the spirit

This armor makes us stronger. Even though at times we get struck by temptation, hurt, guilt, unworthiness, this armor from the Lord is what makes us strong, essentially, stronger.

We are here as missionaries to be made strong, and to help the Lord in making us stronger

 

“I saw the Lord always before me, for he is a my right hand so that I will not be shaken; therefore my heart was glad and my tongue rejoiced; moreover my flesh will live in hope.”Acts 2: 23-26

 

Christ is our strength.

Deo Gloria.

 

 

Many things in this world grow: grass, hair, people, and many other countless things you can name. So, why doesn’t, say a chair, grow? Because it has no life, which we therefore need life in order to grow.

But even before that, we MUST CHOOSE to GROW. We must choose to grow in the spirit so we can experience happiness and reach heaven. Some people say the saying, “You learn something new everyday,” but I believe as Catholics – We are called to grown in holiness with the Lord each and every day and learn something new from Him so that we experience Him more and more. How do we do that? Through prayer, sacraments, service to others, (family, work, MV Discernment Program, FT pastoral work, religious life, etc.), going for religous life and / or whatever God calls us to be.

But all of these things have one thing in common: YOU WILL NEVER REACH THE FULL POTENTIAL OF GROWTH IN ANY OF THESE AREAS WITHOUT OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST.

In the name of Our Lord Jesus Christ, we thank you Father for constantly pursuing us and directing us to grow in love with you. With the intercession of Mother Mary, we glorify our lives for you and ask for all the saints in heaven to help pray for us. Amen.

During this ETNC preparation, I was truly blessed by the Lord through humility and growth. Although I was overwhelmed, stressed, uncomfortable, and anxious with the tasks I was given (Awake Fair, Workshops and Session 2), the Lord showed me that HE is MORE THAN ENOUGH.

Everything was all good with the preparations with the two committees, having meetings, making plans, deadlines, timelines, etc. until the Wednesday Night before conference.

That night, I had such a heavy heart and was so anxious that I could not think. Both Apple and Amee (counterparts for Awake fair and Workshops) were working hard and I felt so discouraged with the way I was performing because there was just too much for me to handle. My mind was everywhere. Session 2 was also being neglected since there were so many other responsibilities and things on my mind.

I had a short sigh of relief when we planned to go for confession and mass that Wednesday night. But then all the negative emotions came back because the priest that was there said they did not have both confessions or mass due to summer hours. My heart fell even more.

Frigg man. All I could do is pray.

I remember praying, “Lord, I need you. Lord take this all away. I put all these things in my heart at the foot of your cross.”

I was with Apple Lacbay and Julius Samaniego at the time since we were planning to work on awake fair stuff later that evening. A few minutes after that prayer, a NEW priest walked out of a room, which made Julius and I look at each other and without saying anything to each other we both knew that one of us should ask if the priest had time to go for confessions.

Julius initiated in asking the priest which resulted in him saying yes it taking the time to give Apple, Julius and myself the sacrament of reconciliation.

After the confession, my heart was renewed, refreshed, revitalized and uplifted by the Spirit. I was in awe on how the Lord provides and answers prayers. Siggghhhh… I was touched.

Then, the Lord made me realize something that would bring me peace. Since Julius has been available, present and very willing to help out with awake fair, the Lord spoke to me and directed my attention in seeing if Julius could take on the awake fair head role so that I would have more time to focus on Workshop Committee and Session 2.

Praise God for this revelation.

After talking to Apple, Tita Louie and Tito Noriel, Julius was appointed as awake fair head. And man oh man, the Lord is truly good! Apple and Julius did such an excellent job with awake fair before, during and after the conference that it brought peace to my heart. Jesus was truly exposed through the awake fair team because they showed the true meaning of service for God and doing it with love.

Looking back, I took on too much responsibility which caused so many draining emotions.

But, through all the moments of anxiety, worries, doubts, fears, discouragement, the message was simple. As long we continue to rely on Him, He is more than Enough.

As servants of the Lord, the devil will do what it takes for us to lead and serve with pride so that we we put God behind us and rely on our own strength. Not only that, when we make mistakes, he discourages us so that we will feel so much sadness, sorrow, pain and discomfort, which impedes us and blocks our hearts from serving our Lord Jesus Christ

This year’s Regional Youth Conference here in the BIG SKY REGION was such a HUGE BLESSING. There were a lot of blessings and the service team was such an honour to serve with because they were all doing their part.

We were like one body and we were all different parts of it … the body being Christ.

Although there were lots of good stuff, there were also things we could improve on personally, spiritually, and as a community as a whole. I really praise God because He pushed me out of my comfort zone to not only give praise and honour people for doing a good job, but also lovingly correct people so that they would realize that the evil one is trying to attack us so that we fall apart. Man, the evil one put up a fight. Even for myself, there were moments were fatigue would set in, I would make a mistake and feel discouraged. I think the “GAME CHANGING” moment in RYC for me was going to CONFESSION.

Praise God I had the time to go to confession because it was so uplifting. But, going into the confession, and after going 2 weeks ago, I actually did not know what to confess. My pride was getting in the way because I thought I DID NOT SIN or did not know what to confess. So I told Father Jeffrey, “Father, I just wanted to say I am not sure what to confess because all the deep and dark sins I’ve done in the past is non-existent since I’m trying to protect the call of a full-time worker.”

Then Father said, “The devil loves to attack us by making us PRIDEFUL and DISCOURAGED as servants of the Lord. Even as priests and the holiest of the holy goes through these attacks. Just remember WHO CALLED YOU and WHY YOU HAVE BEEN CALLED. Do ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST.”

These simple words made me realize that I was being PRIDEFUL and that I needed to humble myself and trust in God and His plan so much more. There were times where I would be trying to help other COMMITTEES instead of just worry about the PASTORAL FORMATION of the whole RYC.

After that confession, I was hit with a sudden feeling of oppression and disappointment because the transition from sports competitions to the workshops DID NOT EXIST. No one was moving and no one was taking initiative to gather all the Youths to the workshops. We were in a stand still. The CFC coordinators had to take charge and tell all the YOUTH to go to their workshops. On Top of that, we were running behind schedule. Man, I felt discouraged, I really felt like I failed to do my part as a FTPW, but remembering the words that Father Jeffrey had said in my confession, I prayed and needed to discern on what to do next. Praise God, the Lord gave me the grace to express the concern we had with the transition and remind everyone that WE ARE IN A BATTLE and that we need to focus on our service for the Lord but TO MAKE SURE WE ARE NOT DISCOURAGED. This service is not comfortable, we will make mistakes and be upset but how fast do we turn to God and ask for His guidance and peace?

Praise God for this loving correction not only to the service team but within my self because as the RYC moved forward, The Holy Spirit filled us to work as one body,  ending the RYC with so much joy, happiness and peace.

With This, May God be praised.