It’s been a few weeks. But trust me, I have a few blogs lined up for this week to catch up on. What can I say, since my last post (Before MV Shout) a lot was going on…since MV Shout, so much more has been going on in my Faith journey.
“…And behold, you shall be silent and unable to speak until the day when these things take place, because you did not believe my words, which will be fulfilled in their proper time.”
-Luke 1:20
I remember right after our MV Shout, I was really uplifted, just ready to serve the Lord. I was sure of the path that I wanted to take in this following week. Boy, did the Lord have plans for me. You know how it is. The Lord giveth, the Lord Taketh away. That’s exactly what He did with what I wanted.
Allow me to let me share with you a very personal experience and encounter with the Lord.
Literally a few days after MV Shout, I really took it upon myself to go out with a friend of mine and just chill, have dinner. Here’s the thing. I was so excited with my own selfish desires again, completely forgetting to rely on the Lord in just being able to keep my head straight; to be emotionally chaste with the intentions of just being friends.
I remember being so excited, looking forward to every second of that day. There was so much to talk about, to catch up on…then the morning of came, and BOOM. I couldn’t hear out of my left ear at all..
I tried everything in the last few hours before our scheduled time to meet, but nothing worked. Even my right ear was starting to go fuzzy. The entire time, it was hard to keep a conversation. It was hard to listen to whatever this person was saying. I was dreading it…as the day went on, I was asking the Lord why…out of all these days, why today. The Lord decided to really teach me a lesson in humility…Heck, this day I planned for just the two of us ended up to 4 of us… (BUT Praise God for you guys if you read this. It really really did reveal something to me)
Okay, so all this happened…that sucks…what could you possibly get out of this?
Though my plans didn’t fall through, the Lord’s voice fell on my own deaf ears. I remember going home, so distraught, only to finally find personal prayer time and the Lord telling me, “Really appreciate the value of who you are with because I reside in them. You’ve been wondering why it seems like I’m not speaking to you..so you yearn, but it was really you not listening to the very truth you did not want to hear and accept. I have plans for you, but only will they flourish if you let me into your heart. No one else for now.”
There it was. My last post I was yearning to find something…but all this time, I just wasn’t listening. So the Lord did what He needed to do, and I’m happy He did so. Vocation can wait. I have all the time in the world to pray for that. Mission is now.
Praise God. I’ve been tying myself down with getting caught up in my vocation that I forgot my vocation right now is the calling to love EVERYBODY, and not just one person at this point.
So, there it is. Not gonna lie, I was really uncomfortable finding the words to explain this experience. OH, I went to the doctor and got the medication and all that stuff. I can hear again. But boy, how coincidental providential that was.
Oh man. Pray for me! I surely will do so for you! The Lord is great.
Deo Gloria