My Provider

For more than three years now, the Lord has blessed me so much with a job that allowed me to return to school full-time and is so understanding of my service in the community; thus not demanding weekend hours to compensate for my weekdays off. How I survived two years of part-time work and full-time school, but remained financially self-sufficient is beyond me. I tried to make sense of it all, but it only came down to this – the Lord provides.

Now that I’ve graduated, I had to embark on an adventure that I have been away from for awhile – job hunting. I was very picky at the start of my applications because I had an idea of my capabilities and accomplishments so I believed I knew what would fit me. I also had the perfect work schedule in mind; Monday to Friday 9-5pm. The reason I was so picky is because I didn’t want my time for service to be lessened. Anything that mentioned weekends and “can work evenings” in the description, I immediately ignored. I was in control. But like everything in the past that I took to my hands and tried to control, nothing was going right. I wasn’t getting any call backs and the only replies I got were of regrets and polite apologies.

It’s a shame that it had to take me a series of unfortunate events to be reminded that He is God and I am not. But I’m grateful for these events for they made my stubborn heart submit to the One who controls it all. Upon reflection of how God has always provided for me, I started to apply more and trust that He already has the perfect job for me, I just need to let His plans happen the way He wants. And the Lord is so good! Just when I surrendered everything in prayer, He gave me all I wanted and more! Just this week, I got hired at a Monday to Friday 9-5pm office job in line with my field of study plus a chance to become a certified scuba diver (even though I only float by paddling like a dog)! It’s so awesome how the Lord completely blows my mind and gives me chances to venture more of what’s foreign to me.

Despite all of the times I have selfishly complained, constantly doubted, and consistently denied graces, He still provides. He gives me what I need at His own time and only asks for me to trust. He is unchanging despite my inconsistencies. He counters my sinful and doubtful nature with His abundance and faithfulness.

Father, most abundant and merciful, Your love for me continues to renew me everyday. Keeper of my heart, ruler of my life, saviour of my soul, enlighten me and guide me all the days of my life. Pray for me O holy mother of God, that I may be made worthy of the promises of Christ. Amen.