I’m the type of person that really hates being vulnerable. I hate the idea of someone seeing through me and knowing things that, I myself, am uncomfortable dealing with. Generally, I like to keep things to myself.
With the recent SHOUT… let’s just say that it was a giant explosion of vulnerability and honesty from both myself and from those around me.
The Lord revealed lot of things to me through this SHOUT: I felt a tremendous amount of love, joy, and enlightenment, but there were also a lot of things that really hurt me. Despite receiving an abundance of blessings, I found myself focusing more on the hurtful experiences that I had.
Without divulging too much, I discovered a lot of broken relationships, relationships that I always thought were perfectly fine. Conflicts were revealed, and hurts were brought to light. In a way, I felt like I was in an illusion, thinking everything was okay, and, in a second, the Lord snapped me out of it in the harshest way possible.
I began to ask a lot of questions: Why now? Why during SHOUT? Why did you have to reveal these things to me? This is what happens when people become too vulnerable! (lol)
But jokes aside, it took me a while to let my feelings sink in. After much reflection, I felt the Lord console me:
I know it hurts, but accepting the truth is the first step to healing. I want nothing more than to perfect my love in each and every one of you. It is through this brokenness that I will reach out my hand, mold you, and make you perfect. In due time, everyone will heal. Trust in me.
#notmyhandbutyours
As much as I hate being vulnerable, I can confidently say that the vulnerability and honesty that I experienced this past week was the first step to the Lord claiming his victory. It was through our vulnerability that the Lord has opened our hearts. Praise God!
:’)