Untouchable

“All things are naked and open to His eyes.” – Hebrews 4:13

Most of the time, loneliness stems not from the physical state of being alone, but from feeling misunderstood. Being alone in the recesses of your mind may be the most loneliest feeling. There are our acquaintances, our friends, our family, and we allow them into different parts of our lives; some knowing more of us, and some knowing less. But there are some parts of us that even if we tried to make someone else understand, they just won’t be able to.

For me, people see an areahead, and now an MV, someone who is constantly joyful and positive, a good student, an ideal daughter.. some of those can be contested depending on your relationship with me and the day you catch me on, but there’s a part of me that I feel is so untouchable.. no matter how much you see and how much I tell you, there will always be that part of me that will remain just mine. And I think that it’s when we focus on that part of us that we feel most alone.. You can tell someone about your disappointments, your sadness, and your hurts, but only you will truly understand the deepness of those pains.

God is more present in the parts of your life that you hide. He’s more present in those parts of me that I both try to push away to non-existence but the very parts of me that I hold on tightly to and clench my fingers around pretending both at the same time that they don’t exist, but also being acutely aware of their existence as I hide them. He is more interested in those parts of us, not to scold us or to shake his head in disapproval or disappointment, but to embrace us.

And when even our ugly parts are embraced, we know that we are truly loved.