I find it funny how a Drake song title is the title to this reflection. Nonetheless… it’s been a while.
I guess I can say that I was actually in my feelings. In short, after the month of June, which was an incredibly busy month, not just for me but for the entire Greater Toronto Area, I just felt like I needed a vacation. Let me tell you, once I got into that vacation mode, that was it, I was gone. I definitely let my laziness come over me and just stop me from doing many tasks that I was supposed to do and wanted to do. I would be telling myself that I don’t have the time to do something, meanwhile I actually had a lot of time.
It is currently 2am here in Toronto, and I was actually just thinking about Drake’s lyrics in his song “In My Feelings”. As provocative as the song may be, especially with the recently released music video for it, I couldn’t help but just think of one lyric that sticks out “trap, trapmoneybenny”. Reason being, that is exactly what I have been doing lately, just trapping myself. I can’t lie it was hard for me to get out of this extreme laziness that I’ve been feeling, even right now. It is actually taking a lot for me to write this.
Am I proud of being trapped? Not at all, but I guess why I’m writing this is because as the days go by the harder it is to resist this laziness and especially trying to conquer it, not so much alone, but without asking for prayers. So I’m asking for your prayers. That I will be able to conquer this and be able to be back on my feet with a heart and passion to serve, not just in community but everyone I encounter.
Lord give me the strength.
Amen
Christian Medeiros