“Yet not what I want but what You want”
When the Lord called me back to His arms in 2015, I knew I had to follow Him. I remember telling Him, “I want what You want for me and of me, my God, my everything”. This prayer changed me. This was all before I knew anything about discernment or had a thought on Matthew 26:39.
On Tuesday, we had our MV teaching on Discernment and was wonderfully affirmed by how discernment is defined – that is to surrender, to desire what God wants for you.
However, as I recalled conversations I had with some friends and acquaintances, as they wondered if I’m seriously considering becoming a full-time pastoral worker, I realized I’ve never really thought of what I would be giving up. I’m aware of what I might have to give up but if this is what God wants for me, then I’m bound to find peace in it, right? All I know is I love God and I know He has better plans than what I can even dare to imagine. I pray that more and more people will love Him too, know Him too. That they will discover His infinite goodness and love. It’s the nearness of Him that I seek, that I’m thankful for. I am aware that this desire, this mission might come in different forms, different ways and that’s why I can only want what He wants for me, nothing more, nothing less.
Trying,
Alodia
