My prayer for this Advent season is to deepen my prayer time so that I can prepare my heart for the coming of the Lord. This time of preparation has helped me discover what it is I truly desire: it is to be with God.
There are just so many things I want, so many things I’d like to have, but no material possession will ever fill the God-sized void in my heart. Nothing else can possibly satisfy me, nothing would ever make me as happy. It is through seeking to be with Him that my longing intensifies. It is through desiring to serve Him and to do his will, that my thirst is quenched. However, it is also when my mind cannot keep up with my heart. My mind is pulling me back and worrying. It keeps asking questions and wanting to study the facts, to keep guard, to be safe. It is in knowing my heart’s deep desire that my mind holds on to fear and anxiety. What happens if I completely surrender myself to the Lord? What happens to my family? To my work? To my life?
Advent is a time of preparation. Like this season, my heart (and my mind) shall prepare for the coming of the Lord. Wherever (and whenever) He might call, that is where I am meant to be. In my every day life, he is calling me to trust in Him and to constantly cling to His love and promises. I don’t think I’ll ever convince my mind to stop worrying, but I know that I’ll never be able to convince my heart to stop following Him.
Heighten my hearts desires to serve You Lord
To use me as a vessel of Your selfless love
Awaken Your spirit in me; fill me with Your grace
To bear a love like Yours
To bring people back to Your embrace
Amen.
