Woooah, I didn’t think that it could come to this point where I’m (actually) blogging. It has always been an idea but has been shoved off because of lack of motivation.
Anyways, up until now, I’ve just been truly amazed, in awe, mind blown everytime I read a post here. God’s words shared here are truly powerful and inspiring.
I am Arvin Amo, Mountain Region (#YEG!!!!), a newly approved MV. If you ask me this time last year if I would ever apply for MV, I wouldn’t even think about. This time last year, I was going through “spiritual dryness”. I decided to step down from my CFCYouth service without discerning properly because of personal reasons (being “too” busy, prayer life was very inconsistent, beat myself regularly due to challenges in my service role). I remembered that I made the decision during Worship at an event and I was crying. Then I hid from my brothers and sisters for a while because of guilt. I just couldn’t face them. I thought my life would be better by leaving CFCYouth. Rather, I found myself even more unstable, digging a deeper hole that was harder to get out off. Hungry of spiritual food, I went to RYC. The Lord spoke to me through the talks but I wasn’t receptive (so stubborn, haha).
I have heard of MV Program a few times last year. First time was around May when (Kuya Ambrose) talked about his experiences from MV SHOuT. He introduced the idea but of course I really didn’t pay attention because of what was happening in my life.
It was during (and especially after) #TNC2014 that I felt that I wanted to serve again in the community. I missed the service. Then the idea of MV resurfaced but I neglected the idea because I felt really unworthy (and I still feel like that), who would accept someone who decided to leave without proper notice in the first place. But The Lord never stopped on reaching to me with His love. It was around December that I really decided to stop unloving myself and be loved more by God.
That’s when I started to pray more (committed to praying the Rosary more) and for MV as well because God presented the idea once again. I really doubted myself of the idea of MV again because of what happened (and even know but I just everything to The Lord) so it took a lot of time to discern.
Fast forward, God worked in me that I said Yes to MV. Afterwards, I talked to one of the brothers and mentioned my doubts. One thing he said to me that really affirmed the decision was “maybe you had to go through those things last year to realize how much you miss serving.” After that, I really became more at ease with my decision.
So Praise the Lord for the opportunity to serve again. Of course, there are still a lot of things to learn, to experience but I know that the Lord will continue to guide me in this journey through the brothers and sisters He has provided me. I’m nervous but I’m also very excited.
