After serving in the community for blank many years, I still find myself trembling and feeling nervous each time I have been asked to share. I speak faster and faster because it’s the only way I can control my words so that they don’t shake and stutter at the pace of my racing heart. And this is not in the context of a conference or an assembly. This is even in the case of being placed in a moment with a stranger or a friend where I’m caught off-guard to promptly share a piece of my experiences… my struggles… my victories… my life.

Recently, I find myself in situations where I’m challenged to share the deeper depths of my heart. “Lord, I’m simply not prepared.” – that’s often what I find myself thinking in these sudden moments. From pains to beyond the worldly riches, it’s hard. And I still find myself trembling, and at a loss of the right words (or any words at all) to say. The stuttering begins. Ranting. Pacing thoughts.

But whenever it is something I’ve been asked to share about weeks ahead, I have days to recollect my thoughts and filter all the moments of God’s grace in my life, and it takes it pace. When I wonder about why it has always been like this, I realized that these insecurities are the mirror actions God uses to filter His message into my life…

Share Life.

In the same way I spend days to prepare for 5 minutes of a share, life must be approached in the same manner. It is not a matter of preparing for one moment, but for a lifetime of them. Every second, every minute, every encounter should be a moment to ponder where the Lord’s love and grace stands firm so that any given moment would carry the same potential as that 5-minute mark.

God has blessed me with the life I have, not solely for myself to see the glory of God in His love for me, but so that I can be equipped with everything I need to share Life in which ever way He calls. I need simply to just have faith and trust that in everything, there was (and IS) always a purpose.

“If he would plant the seed, God would grant the crop.”

May He always be praised.
TOTUS TUUS.